Es realidad

I´m here. It´s different. It´s beautiful. It´s hard. It´s surreal. But as I sit here in the comfortable confines of a rather posh, downtown San Jose internet cafe, typing and thinking in English as a torrential downpour waits for me outside, I realize that I like the rain. With all disregard to the discomfort we feel when we get soaked to the bone, we always appreciate the feeling of being dry once again. Without the rain, we wouldn´t know life in contrast. We wouldn´t know balance. We wouldn´t love wet and dry. Costa Rica is wet. It´s shocking the amount of wet I feel right now, but I know I´ll learn to be in it... each moment. Bring it on.
I´ll be honest, I´m exhausted and the thoughts of a safe, familiar place like home with a language and culture that I actually comprehend sounds.... amazing. However, I know I actually want to be here, and see the otherside... eventually.
Last night was my first night with a new family. While watching CSI Miami in Spanish, I chatted to the best of my ability with Don Mario, Doña Albertina, y Carmen, all the while wishing I could just let them know already what was really inside wanting to get out. I now understand the tremendous frustration and awkwardness the people of Babel felt following God´s practical joke on humanity. It sucks being human yet not being able, in many cases, to understand or be understood by another human being, no matter how hard you try. Not to say that I didn´t communicate at all. On the contrary, I had many successful, however small, conversations with my new family members and their friends, but it definitely is a new sensation of frustration. Yeah... but it´s good. Tis´good. And I´m glad. If it wasn´t hard, I don´t know if I would like it. It it wasn´t a challenge, I probably wouldn´t be here.
Today we explored the city and were nicely interrogated in an interview setting regarding our limited Spanish abilities. I´ve been ready to fall asleep all day, assuming getting up at 5:30 had nothing to do with the fatigue:) But my 30 minutes is about up.... so stayed tuned to higher levels of energy, thought processing, clarity, and course, claro que si, pictures as well. Amor a ustedes.